At least I can Drive a car now!!!!

Driving has been a problem for me when I first came. I am dead scared behind the wheels. I have never experience driving a car in the Philippines and I never dreamed to be a driver of anything.
When my husband first taught me how to drive, I am scared because I really don't know how to manage myself, in what direction am going to turn the wheels Oh my goodness!!! He can't believe I don't have any idea about it. hahahah!!! then he said that I have to try using the lawn mower tractor just for me to be familiar with turning the wheels to any direction so, I did and I made it in a few hours of practicing. Then he let me drive the car, he was riding with me in the first few minutes then later he let me do it by myself but only in our drive way going back and forth. I do it everyday, just in our driveway. I am driving fine in our driveway because I am the only one but when we go out to the road Oh my!!! I get nervous. I feel like that the coming traffic would hit me then I close my eyes hahaha... Oh!! it was really a nightmare experience for me.. hahahah I want to just drive in the back road not in the highway. When my husband started to talk about driving and let me do it? I have all the reasons in the world so that I can't be on the wheels hahaha.. because I am scared. It is really a stressful thing for me.

It took me two years to be able to gain my confidence on the road. For two years, I keep on praying that somebody would be willing to drive with me on the highway, not my husband because the more I will be scared when he is with me, He keeps on making comments that make me more nervous and sometimes he raised his voice, he has no trust in me thinking that we might be crash if I will be the one driving because I am nervous all the time.. hahaha.. That's why I believe what most people say, DON'T LET YOUR HUSBAND TEACH YOU TO DRIVE, because he will drive you crazy hahahah!!!! Anway, I learned a lot of things from him when it comes to driving and traffic rules. Then comes a time that God hears my prayer. A lady friend offered to go with to practice driving on the road. She comes to the house and pick me up then we will go somewhere for the whole day. That's how I gain confidence driving on the highway. Many times she helped me to fight my fear. There were times that I don't want to drive because I am scared but she is very patient with me hahahah!!! the thing she did is, she will not really drive, she wants me to drive or else we can not go anywhere. She will just sit down in the passenger's seat hahaha.. I was forced to do it myself and that's how I learned. As the days go by I was able to overcome my fear and can manage to drive following the speed limit unlike before that I drove 25 miles per hour in a 45 miles per hour speed limit hahahah.. the drivers following me keep on blowing their horns because I am too slow.. hahahah but now? I sometimes go beyond the speed limit. I have no driver's license yet just a learner's permit. The sad thing is that, the engine of my car broke down before I was able to get my license. I stopped driving since then. I will not drive any car except mine because I am used to it.

I will wait until my car would be fixed then I can drive again. We have no budget at the moment to fix it so, I will just wait. I hope I still have the confidence to drive when my car is done.