Trip to Tennessee

I am excited to see Tennessee again. It will be my second time to visit the place. The last time was during winter and I did not enjoy because it's too cold for me to go around and see the place. Now is so exciting because it's summer time. You might be wondering what this trip for?
Well, we will be attending a wedding. We might not have lots of time to go around because of the event, like rehearsal and other activities but am still excited to think about visiting another state. Wow!! I hope this visit will be a memorable one. hahaha

The only thing I don't like in this trip is the long ride. 6 hours on the road whooh!!! The sad part is me and hubby can't take turns driving because my license had expired already...hahaha not really a license but just a permit to drive.. hehehe I can drive short distances like going to walmart, to the church heheh but to other states? I will be sacred to death. Just to see those big trucks on the road? made me feel nervous all the way. There are many things played in my mind when I am on the road driving specially on busy streets? I wish I am living in the area where there's no other car running except mine..

But anyway, this trip would be fun.. I am excited.

At least I can Drive a car now!!!!

Driving has been a problem for me when I first came. I am dead scared behind the wheels. I have never experience driving a car in the Philippines and I never dreamed to be a driver of anything.
When my husband first taught me how to drive, I am scared because I really don't know how to manage myself, in what direction am going to turn the wheels Oh my goodness!!! He can't believe I don't have any idea about it. hahahah!!! then he said that I have to try using the lawn mower tractor just for me to be familiar with turning the wheels to any direction so, I did and I made it in a few hours of practicing. Then he let me drive the car, he was riding with me in the first few minutes then later he let me do it by myself but only in our drive way going back and forth. I do it everyday, just in our driveway. I am driving fine in our driveway because I am the only one but when we go out to the road Oh my!!! I get nervous. I feel like that the coming traffic would hit me then I close my eyes hahaha... Oh!! it was really a nightmare experience for me.. hahahah I want to just drive in the back road not in the highway. When my husband started to talk about driving and let me do it? I have all the reasons in the world so that I can't be on the wheels hahaha.. because I am scared. It is really a stressful thing for me.

It took me two years to be able to gain my confidence on the road. For two years, I keep on praying that somebody would be willing to drive with me on the highway, not my husband because the more I will be scared when he is with me, He keeps on making comments that make me more nervous and sometimes he raised his voice, he has no trust in me thinking that we might be crash if I will be the one driving because I am nervous all the time.. hahaha.. That's why I believe what most people say, DON'T LET YOUR HUSBAND TEACH YOU TO DRIVE, because he will drive you crazy hahahah!!!! Anway, I learned a lot of things from him when it comes to driving and traffic rules. Then comes a time that God hears my prayer. A lady friend offered to go with to practice driving on the road. She comes to the house and pick me up then we will go somewhere for the whole day. That's how I gain confidence driving on the highway. Many times she helped me to fight my fear. There were times that I don't want to drive because I am scared but she is very patient with me hahahah!!! the thing she did is, she will not really drive, she wants me to drive or else we can not go anywhere. She will just sit down in the passenger's seat hahaha.. I was forced to do it myself and that's how I learned. As the days go by I was able to overcome my fear and can manage to drive following the speed limit unlike before that I drove 25 miles per hour in a 45 miles per hour speed limit hahahah.. the drivers following me keep on blowing their horns because I am too slow.. hahahah but now? I sometimes go beyond the speed limit. I have no driver's license yet just a learner's permit. The sad thing is that, the engine of my car broke down before I was able to get my license. I stopped driving since then. I will not drive any car except mine because I am used to it.

I will wait until my car would be fixed then I can drive again. We have no budget at the moment to fix it so, I will just wait. I hope I still have the confidence to drive when my car is done.

Taking the learner's permit to drive

I was encouraged by friends to get a learner's permit so that I can start driving on the road not on the driveway only. Lol. So, I studied the driver's manual. Do you believe that when you re not interested in that certain thing, you are having a hard time understanding it? I do believe on that.
I am not really interested to be a driver. I maybe just forced by circumstance. It is a neccesity because no one will take me to the place where I want to go if I can't drive. My husband has to go to work. He can not take me anywhere I want at anytime and there is no available passenger vehicle in our area. I hate to think about driving but I have to do it. So, I studied and took the exam. Oh my!!! I failed. Lol.. I mastered all the traffic signs but don't know about the driving skills. All the questions on the written exam were about what to do when you are driving.. Like when you are driving down hill what gear you use, when you skidded on the road, etc. I can not remember all those things and what to do. All are found in the driver's manual but I did not pay attention to it. That was it. I failed but the good thing is you can retake as many times as you can until you pass. No payment until you will pass then they will issue your card and that's the time you will pay. I reviewed the manual and put everything into my head and retake the following day. Thanks I made it and I was issued a card. But then, I am still scared to drive on the road. I practiced several times on the back road and even drive going to Walmart just once. Lol..My permit is about to expire now but still I have no guts to get my license. It is really a dilemma for me. I hope I can make it in due time.

Driving Problem

Driving is the biggest fear for most lady immigrants. That is my problem too. I never experience driving in my life even driving a bicycle? I never experience it. You can just imagine how hard it is when you never have been in a driver's seat. I start to learn how to maneuver using the lawn mower.. hahaha In my first try, I am so scared. I can imagine the kids in my country who are really expert in turning the wheels of the go cart easily? Lol. Why I am so scared? In my childhood I never experience driving anything because I did not grow up in the city where kids are expose to driving GO CARTS, Kids cars on the malls , bicycles and everything. Oh My!!! But anyway, I made it. I learn maneuvering the wheels by using the Lawn mower. Then later, I used the car. You can just imagine how scared I am driving a car first time in my life? My husband was with me, and the more he scares me when he raise his voice to let me step on the break or gas, sometimes I am confuse with the gas and the break.. hahaha.. But I made it in few days. I practiced driving in our driveway. One time when I was about to park the car, I hit the lamp post in our yard. It's too bad, the post gets under the car. I am alone at that time and I can't get the post out. When my husband arrived, he jack up the car to take the lamp post out. I did not drive for few months since that incident. It was awful!!